Love Is Patient

Patience is not something that comes to me easy.  I have to work at it everyday of my life and only after falling down several times and getting back up do I finally learn a lesson.  As you all know or if you don't, my boyfriend Lincoln and I have been together about 6 months.  We are going really slow and living each day for what it is.  We have both been set on fire burned in the past so we have a lot of walls to break down before we eventually get to each other's enter core, but there's no rush.  I love getting to know another piece of him each day and I am sure that even after your married for 40 years you still learn about each other.  This weekend was a major learning experience for us.  Without getting into the details there was anger and tears and hugs and kisses and long talks and we both learned about each other.  I know that these things come in each relationship and you just talk about it and then you know for the next time.  I mean we aren't all mind readers right, what fun would that be?  Anyways I had an emotional weekend and Lincoln and I are that much closer.  I found this quote on Pintrest the other night and I thought it went well.  Not EVERY verse fits but it explains relationships pretty well and reminded me of patience.  When its worth it and your happy its important to have as many as you can scrounge up.  LOL  After our weekend this fit us and made me realize that we will never be perfect but as long as we keep communicating and breaking through some of our walls one day or one experience at a time it's going to keep on going and in the end be AMAZING!!!

Something that I can't believe that I haven't blogged about is my latest ink addition.  It isn't so new anymore seeing that I got my latest and LAST (mother) tattoo in March but seeing what this post is about it fit to finally put it out there.  I had been wanting a tattoo on my wrist for some time but never went and done it.  In March I made the executive decision and headed out to Longview.  It took about 10 minutes and I also got one on my foot redone into something new and way better.  I love my heart on my foot and it fits way better than what I had previously.  Anyways I got my wrist tattoo in a light pink.  It says Love is Patient in Arabic.  Yes, I know ironic that I got part of a Christian Bible verse in a Arabic but it means so much to me....Let me explain.  I thought when I left Iraq I would never look back and totally block out that period in my life but to be honest that was one of the greatest times in my life.  I learned and went through so much it transformed me into the woman I am today.  I am totally independent and happy in myself.  Before I depended on the ideals of America and what I thought was going to make me happy now I know that I MAKE ME happy and ever since I realized that I have been the happiest I have ever been.  This also has carried over into my relationship with Lincoln, this is the first relationship where I have actually gone into it without holding on to the train while it was still going sort of thing.  I was totally happy with myself and now I have the happiest relationship I have ever had in my life.  I guess all those things my Mom has been telling me for years really are true ;)!! GO FIGURE!!  Anyways, Iraq was a great time in my life and it opened my eyes to so many paths but mostly to love and that you can't rush it.  It is kind, it isn't boastful, or arrogant, LOVE IS PATENT!  Now every time I see that scribble of a language on my wrist it is a constant reminder of the greatness that came from the Middle East and how I always need to remember what it says.